Sunglasses: Flashbacks Encinitas, Vintage Cropped Tee: c/o Hot Trash Vintage, Beetle Ring & Tibetan Stone Gypsy Cuff: c/o Hot Trash Vintage, Levi's shorts: Vintage, Leopard Sweater: Nasty Gal (years ago), Boots: Vintage
I've got issues. Haven't we all.
The lapse in posting for the last two weeks was directly related to a myriad of small but growing number of woes, that eventually became such a brimming heap of crap, I was set ablaze by the tiniest spark.
It went something like this:
Hey self, here are some of those dumb sensations called feelings. Don't cry. Just act like you didn't feel them. Wait long enough until you forget it even happened and the sensation goes away. Do this to infinity.
Let this recipe cook for about a year. And then...
Wait a second, what was that? Somebody said NO to you?!?!!?
System Fail. 0001010101111010101100111010010101010111010101111000101010100000111
Explode into a thousand mini-selfs and smash everything that's getting in the way of your extremely important and superior desires.
Do you want avocado on your sandwich? WHO NEEDS A SUBWAY IDIOT TO PUT AVOCADO ON YOUR BREAD!! KNOCK THE COOKIES OFF THE COUNTER AND THROW ALL THE NAPKINS!!!
Do you want to make a right turn? WHO NEEDS LANES!! DRIVE ON THE SIDEWALK!!
Do you want someone to take you somewhere? WHO THE FUCK NEEDS PEOPLE!!! STEAL A CAR!! ABANDON IT WHEREVER YOU WANT!
Do you want some advice? SHUT UP BEFORE I BEAT YOU LIKE A RENTED MULE!!!!
and so on and so on.
Which eventually leads to horrible regret and self-shaming. Not to mention a thousand attempts at giving apologies worthy of the destruction that has been caused. But not all is lost and out of such chaos, better things can grow. And they did grow. I once heard that a relationship (be it your relationship with friends, family, lovers, etc.) should not be measured by the amount of conflicts that happen, but rather by the way in which the conflicts are resolved.
Anyway, I don't want to end this on some cheesy, super positive and inspiring bit about life and such. I just want to say that everything is fine and I'm back now.